Confuse

If you have a strong relationship ever..would it be useful for your future? or it just an obstruction for yourself to achieve a good life? Such a weird world we living in. When you get what you want, and suddenly you just threw it away..such an idiot person to make a decision like that isn't it? What kind of person are you? Are you the one who appreciate a long lasting relationship or you are the the type of person that I discuss about? But somehow in this wide world, I believe that there is still a person who did care about other people feeling no matter how they met each other or what brings them together. All they need is lesson and a good karma. Every gentleman need a decent lady, how about the vice versa? God plan is very interesting isn't it?

2015

Everything seems new..feels like yesterday all that black history crushed and destroy my life in a blink of eyes. And yeah..its 2015, new book and new life as usual. A cliche question..What is your new year resolutions? My answer would be...fix the past. As you know, you need to be good to your past so you can make a great move for your future, and for sure i want to be happy and not being lonely. Its hard living in a world that you yourself couldn't understand. Me..myself also haven't figure out what happen in a year or two.. everything went by so fast like a roller coaster and you wouldn't know when its stop. I am not sure whether i need to feel the happiness or just lonely. How about you?

blank note for ex

Although you no longer mine I cant never forget you The way you call my name Feel as if you're still there Deep in my heart You still have me For me..right here i always pray for you So that you will not continue to hurt yourself anymore You're happy encounter Although I was not there with you Don't be mad.. I will always be there From a distance you'll mine From a distance I still loving you One world, against our love Finally we separated... I am not regret loving you I wish you well in life

There's a difference between giving up and knowing you've had enough

This is not a goodbye, my darling, this is a thank you. Thank you for coming into my life and giving me joy, thank you for loving me and receiving my love in return. Thank you for the memories I will cherish forever. But most of all, thank you for showing me that there will come a time when I can eventually let you go.Sometimes we have to give up on someone in order to respect ourselves rather than keep accepting things and words we dont really deserve.

Vervain

All this talk of getting old It's getting me down my love Like a cat in a bag, waiting to drown This time I'm comin' down And I hope you're thinking of me As you lay down on your side Now the drugs don't work They just make you worse But I know I'll see your face again Now the drugs don't work They just make you worse But I know I'll see your face again But I know I'm on a losing streak 'Cause I passed down my old street And if you wanna show, then just let me know And I'll sing in your ear again ;) 'Cause baby, ooh, if heaven calls, I'm coming, too Just like you said, you leave my life, I'm better off dead Now the drugs don't work They just make you worse But I know I'll see your face again Yeah, I know I'll see your face again Yeah, I know I'll see your face again Yeah, I know I'll see your face again Yeah, I know I'll see your face again I'm never going down, I'm never coming down No more, no more, no more, no more, no more I'm never coming down, I'm never going down No more, no more, no more, no more, no more

I AM ANGEL..ON MY OWN

GETTING STRONGER..STAND ON MY OWN FEET..NO MORE GUARDIAN BESIDE ME...IT JUST A PHASE..HAVE FAITH ON YOURSELF ANGEL. PROMISE TO WEAR THAT 'SMILE' ATTIRE...NO MORE FROWN PLEASE. DREAMS STAY AS DREAM. ANGEL AFTER THIS WILL NOT PUT MORE HOPE ON OTHERS..SHE WILL PUT HOPE ON HERSELF.

the flightless bird

This keyboard feels so new, so interesting, almost like I've never told a story here before.its been awhile..

Life has a funny way of making you feel special and at the very next moment, taking it that feeling right from inside of you. I fell in love again today and it keeps happening. I hate the thought of loving this guy so much that I almost seem to forget myself and at the end of the day, I question the idea of what I want, where I wanna go and more importantly, who I am.

I spend my days either work or with him. We practically do nothing but the best part is that we don't really have to. Like how we spent a whole night just watching movies and laughing in each others' arms and I remember thinking to myself how grateful I am that I could be that way with someone and especially with him.

Though all this, I am constantly plagued with the idea that he would eventually hurt me, that he would eventually find someone better and leave. Maybe it's only my insecurities or maybe it's because it has happened before but he's one person I am actually afraid of losing.

I don't know, maybe it's just me. Or maybe, because, somewhere deep down inside of me, you already hurt me.