the flightless bird

This keyboard feels so new, so interesting, almost like I've never told a story here before.its been awhile..

Life has a funny way of making you feel special and at the very next moment, taking it that feeling right from inside of you. I fell in love again today and it keeps happening. I hate the thought of loving this guy so much that I almost seem to forget myself and at the end of the day, I question the idea of what I want, where I wanna go and more importantly, who I am.

I spend my days either work or with him. We practically do nothing but the best part is that we don't really have to. Like how we spent a whole night just watching movies and laughing in each others' arms and I remember thinking to myself how grateful I am that I could be that way with someone and especially with him.

Though all this, I am constantly plagued with the idea that he would eventually hurt me, that he would eventually find someone better and leave. Maybe it's only my insecurities or maybe it's because it has happened before but he's one person I am actually afraid of losing.

I don't know, maybe it's just me. Or maybe, because, somewhere deep down inside of me, you already hurt me.