Monday, December 20, 2010

would u just listen....

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,
I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,
How you felt around me? The memories we shared,
And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.
Would you just listen and please don't say a word, not ever,
I'd like you to remember that once upon a time, we said forever,
That I had hopes and dreams, that I was the one who threw them away,
And this is something I will always regret until my dying day.

pls dont break my heart .... its hurt..

Saturday, December 11, 2010

If two past lovers can remain friends, either they never were in love or they still are

Tuesday, October 26, 2010


im gettin older..huh..
my birthday is around the counting days...
im goin thru a hard and a joy days in every second of my life..
Thank you Allah for the that always understand my situation..
My mr. are my friend..thank you for being my partner for life..
my friends...
and of course...what will i have on my birthday....jeng..jeng..jeng..
im wondering...what will happen to my life after 5 years...hurmmm...

Friday, August 27, 2010

im scared too care too much,to miss too much, too feel that rush once more, to love again at the risk of getting hurt. but what i fear most is the thought of you leaving me, when i've already conquered those fears for you...:(

im like a always here to accompany u every step of the way. but do u knw the difference between shadow and me? i'd still be here even there's no light to shine anymore..

Monday, August 16, 2010

no idea

They say past is past. we need to move on to see the future.But how can we move on when our past is the only thing we ever wanted in the future...
miss you Mr. alone n lonely

Thursday, August 12, 2010

ouh my home

i just watched my lil' brother videos that i've recorded few months ago..
suddenly i miss my home...i mean my real home...!
i miss my family so bad...i wanna go home...
i miss my mum...i want her hug...her warm hug that can make me fall asleep instantly...
i miss her cooked...sooo bad... :(
i wanna go home!!
i miss both of my brothers...ouhhh...tears coming out already...
my lil' sis...i miss you so bad bitch...!
miss the chit-chat before sleep..gossiping...
talking...heart to heart...ouhhh.... :'(
and...father...i miss you .. even though we are fighting...and not closed as the old time did...i miss you. i wish time will cure this relationship..
but...seriously i need my home...i miss her so much...
i wanna go back......
actually i feel a bit jealous about my cousin..he can go back anytime he want without feels any worried about his financial or anything...lucky you man...

mom..wish you were here...
dont safe in here...

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

dont be so heartless

its confusing actually...

its all about u..
try to GIVE & TAKE okay...

understand all around u..

loving and lovable...
take care of each other feeling...

i bruise be gentle when u handle me...

but...i love you anyway..

try to comfort my heart..
careful! it's FRAGILE!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

its her talking too much..

such a short time meeting my old friend..
she asking me why i didn't continue my study..
and i answer short n simple..i don't have anything to achieve...
and shes replying.. "I've got so many things that aren't complete! how come you have all things has been done! Crazy U!'
okay...listen..actually i have so many things to do rather than study...(sounds like i am a lazy person..urgghh..whatever!)
there are some personal stuff that i have to settle down...A LOT of personal stuff...
and she asking me again...'what are those??..more important than your study?'
i cant mention it right here..let it P&C..
after letting her know my personal stuff thingy...she ask me again last question before we end our conversation that night..'if you were given money...u don't want to continue ur study right...??(shes laughing)n that was the last thing you do before u die...on ur own...(sounds scary)what would u do...
and taking out my cigarette...light it up...n say...
Crazy u....dont say like that...!u should say it was the beginning of ur life??!!
then we were laughing like hell...hahaha...
i will applying a scuba diving license ... urm...going to Maldives island....travelling around Europe..Make my family comfortable with their lives...thats all...
and then she's looking at me like seeing something scary..."is it??? only simple...but sure nice n memorable..." bring me along okay...hahahaaha...*we both laughing*

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

just filling up the empty spaces

Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps: Continued on page whatever. No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin that you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling that you rushed right through the moments where you should have been paying attention. Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up...:)

Thursday, July 1, 2010

te quiero me amor

I want a boy who will move the hair away from my eyes, and then kiss me. Who will hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous. A boy who will sing to me at random moments. Who lets me sleep on his chest.
I want a guy who will tell his family and friends all about me. Bring me porridge , soup n juice when I’m sick. I want a boy who is more goofy than romantic, but knows the right things to say at the right times.
I want a boy who will call me 3 times a day if he went away. A boy who will apologize for calling too much, and no matter how many times I tell him its okay, he’d still do it. A boy who will let me gossip to him and just smile and agree with everything I say.
A boy who will throw stuffed animals at me when I acted dumb and then jump on me and kiss me a million times. Who will bet kisses on who could beat who on at game. Who makes fun of me just to make me laugh. A boy who will kiss my neck, just to have a reason to tell me how much he loves my new perfume.
I want a boy who, at night, who will dance in his pajamas with me. A boy who will take pictures in photo booths with me, someone who will never turn down a trip to the lake and who will play tag on the beach with me. A boy who could sit with me on the kitchen floor and eat sandwiches. Who will kiss me in the pouring rain.
I want a boy who would try to teach me how to play the guitar, even if we just end up laughing at each other.
I want a boy who will run his fingers through my hair, share his lollipops with me, and get along with all of my friends. Someone who would never be afraid to say I love you in front of his friends and someone who would argue with me about silly things just to make up.
I want a boy who will take me to Target to just make fun of some of the stuff there. Someone who will kiss me at midnight on New Years and who will make funny faces at me when I’m on the phone.
I want a boy who will count stars with me and be friends with my family. I want a boy who will stay home with me on a Friday night just to help me make dinner and watch movies together under the same blanket. Someone who will squirt water guns at me in the house after I’ve got him soaked.
I want a boy who looks me the eye and tell me something serious, that was also funny and make me promise not to laugh. A boy who could make me laugh like no one else can. I want a boy who will hold me closer than normal when I’m sick, and would play with my hair. But mostly I want a boy who is my best friend and will always be there for me. and hopefully its you my dear..

Monday, June 21, 2010

u are the only exception..

hey yaa...
recently im updating my blog just for the sake of filling in my free time...
n today...
im all alone again..
he's going out on vacation...and for sure i'm all by myself for about a week...
hope he's doing fine on his way to the destination..
and coming back safely...
love you dear...

Sunday, June 20, 2010

father..its for you

A little girl needs Daddy
For many, many things:
Like holding her high off the ground
Where the sunlight sings!
Like being the deep music
That tells her all is right
When she awakens frantic with
The terrors of the night.

Like being the great mountain
That rises in her heart
And shows her how she might get home
When all else falls apart.

Like giving her the love
That is her sea and air,
So diving deep or soaring high
She'll always find him there

i miss my dad...i think the last fathers day i celebrated with him it was 3 years ago..
i brought him a chocolate cake n make a surprise after i finish my work..
n the memorable thing was i brought it with my first salary when i was worked as a customer consultant for photo shop.
happy fathers day to all fathers in the whole universe.
nothing much to share..adios.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

LOVE is just a word....or???

Love is unpredictable Love is uncontainable
Love is reliable Love is infallible

Love is right Love is wrong
Love is weak Love is strong

Love is good Love is pure
Love is real Love is sure

Love is jealous Love is pain
Love is lost Love is gained

Love is naked Love is raw
Love is everything Love is all

Love is here Love is there
Love is beautiful Love is fair

Love is great Love is shit
Love is demanding Love is it....

for friend..

Is someone that everyone needs
A friend
Is that special one
A friend
Is someone you tell EVERYTHING
A friend
Is someone you never lie to
A friend
Can be a boy or a girl
A friend
Is someone that is always their
A friend
Will always listen to you
A friend
Always has input to give
A friend
Will never leave you in the dust
A friend
Will help you through the thick and the thin
A friend
Will always stand by your side
A friend
Will never let you down
A friend
Is someone everyone needs
What would you do if you didnt have a friend?

story childhood

My childhood was fun,
tough and exciting.
My childhood was one
where there wasn't much fighting.
This was my childhood.

My childhood was filled
with family and friends.
My childhood was filled
with love that tied up loose ends.
This was my childhood.

My childhood came
with a grandmother that cared.
When she left me
I remembered all the times we shared.
This was my childhood.

My childhood was filled
with classwork and homework.
My childhood was filled
with parents who hated work.
This was my childhood.

My childhood was filled
with fun in the hood,
and food that tasted like Camp bell's,
'Umm Umm Good! '
This was my childhood.

My childhood was filled
with tricycles and bicycles.
My childhood was filled
with Popsicle and Dill pickles.
This was my childhood.

My childhood was filled
with lots of happy holidays.
Holidays that aren't
just the same nowadays.
This was my childhood.

Now my childhood
has become nothing but memories,
But all the good times
will live on within me.
This was my childhood.

i really missed my childhood time.....

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

its been a while

haaaaccchuuummm!!! wooo....very dusty in here..seems like someone very busy..hahaha... sorry...

Sunday, January 31, 2010

rona roni makaroni hidup

if i feel sad or happy..i feel like i want to let it out..or tell anybody. but sometimes you have to keep it or in other way...zipped your mouth off! this year makes me feel and think in a matured way..probably...urmm...yes! and for away from my family...i miss my family...;( mostly adolescent like me or my friends, when things get tangled up they will come to their family.example like when we have trouble with the money, or need some love to pampered up..FAMILY come first..for me? sitting here alone..dint come back home for almost a year..! me..myself actually jealous about the other friends..they going back home when weekend is coming...and me?! nothing to do with life..and most of my time watching the dvd that i already saw..watching movies at cinema alone...duhh..what a nightmare! i hate weekend actually.grrr...the end!

p.s: its nothing to do with the title actually...wahahaha...i hate weekend!

Monday, January 4, 2010

..n surprise!!!

yesterday im checking my fees at via internet. im quite surprise because of the status! already???which dato' paying my fees??nahh...hahaha joking! but unbelievable...i think almost 3 semester i pay it by myself...! urmmmm...curious..
THEN....m going to atm and checking my BIMB....what the fish!!! ive got my ptptn back! glad to see that...3 semester im using my own money to pay the fees...huh...and the other good thing is im goin to pay my other fees which is shwcse using that money...the rest...urmmm...let me think about it...hahaha...thank you Allah.. i dont need to work at night...;) duhh... 1 more thing...the rental for the house also...derr...settle oledy..unclee...jangan tagih2 ok...saye suda byr sewa!!!!!! after that m goin to makan with my nandos la...bcme 'orang kaya' 4 a while...;)

Friday, January 1, 2010

its new year baby!

new doing nothing for new year...most of people will make AZAM for themselves..but for me...urm...such a waste...if i make it for not sure if i can make it happen. so my conclusion for this new year is...just pray...and follow with the flow...hahaha..but me..myself..i also have a target that need to be achieve...;) but i'll keep it in my mind...only me n the trust one knows... topic bout this damn new year...
celebrate with my bestfriend...chill out at gloria jeans coffee...
* sipping ice chocolate with whipped cream -nyum!-
* chit chatting..girls talk....
* talk about the past....memoirs...
*with the tragic surroundings...OMG! many people at bukit bintang!
*and the worst part is when on my way to GJ...there was a guy i think(bangladesh) came to me and spray me with the foam spray! wtf ish...dh la shouting out loud HAPPY NEWWW YEARR!!! abah stupid...i already take a bath la matcha...what for ur spraying me with that annoying stuff..aiyoo...
-and the funniest part then my friend also kena..hahahahaha...;)

marathon movies alone

what a crazy things! im watching movies alone..for me its normal watching movies alone. its not because i dont have partner or friends.YES i have..but..maybe they busy with their own bussiness its time to MYOB.rite? so i make decision to watch it alone. and the best part is i watch it on wednesday...the price is very cheap...m watching muallaf and alvin n the chipmunks 2. ok..heres the simple review from me for both movies :

urm...quite nice and interesting stories...forsure it has a lot of info about religion..either muslim nr katholic...
10/10 for muallaf!

chipmunks 2..
the best part of this stories are when they introduce the chippetes group! hahaha all of people at the cinema know because of what? okay...most of the audience are pronouns the chipettes into chinese language..haha meaning @#$@@$*&^?? hahahahaha..very funny...
second thing i love the most is just because of the beyonce song! single ladies..i love beyonce...and confirmly im among the fan of beyonce..hahaha..derrr!